This group I've been hanging out with and called my friends since I got to Bozeman, I knew they were originally Steve's friends but they've been telling Steve EVERYTHING this entire time, Brett! Brett's even been telling him when I've been talking about how I just want to make out! Geezus! I know I haven't made a real emotional connection with anyone friendwise (or otherwise) up here but I thought she was my closest friend up here and here she's been telling him about every boy I've made out with this entire time!!!! I know it was tacky and I do regret it, Steve is angry about me telling him I love him after I've been snogging these guys, he says I've been fucking around with his heart. I guess I was unintentionaly... I feel miserable about it. But I honestly thought Brett was my friend, she should have told me I was being a dumb slut first and brought it to my attention, I really feel so, SO betrayed!! And we are hanging out on Halloween, I am not going to say anything to her about her rattling off to Steve, I've already told her I'll drive cause I don't want to drink. I know if I do drink I'll just become a miserable sloppy drunk cause I've been so depressed. I hate myself and my life and I am just sick of being here and I just want to go home.